So, I've been terrible at embracing the camera lately. The last time I did it was in March! Egads!
Part of the problem is that I've been terrible at blogging lately period. I am an idiot who bit off way more than I could chew this summer. Between the normal hustle and bustle of being a working mom with two young kids, I also signed Superman and I up for a co-ed softball team (the first time I've played since college!). Then, Superman encouraged me to sign up for a class I've been talking about taking for 3 years (but never doing anything about). It's an online grad class, and it's kicking my butt. It feels like it requires so much more effort than my last grad class. 7 years ago. Before I was married. Before I had kids. Before I had a 4 bedroom house to keep clean. And a lawn with landscaping. And a garden. Really...what was I thinking?!?!
The other problem is that I am still so camera shy. I know that Embrace the camera encourages you to ignore what you look like, and just get in front of the camera because your kids will want to remember you and won't notice if you didn't look your best. But that is so much harder to do when you are really really unhappy with the way you look. :(
For Mother's Day, we took the kids to a local indoor water park. And while I took about 100 pictures of them, I had to really force myself to take one of me. Because if there is anything harder than taking a picture of yourself when you are unhappy with your weight, it's taking a pictures of yourself in a bathing suit when you are unhappy with your weight.
My signature pose: trying to hide behind a kid, so you don't notice how fat I am.
But I am making a new promise to myself...I will start embracing the camera again. Because I have decided I am going to get this weight off. And every week I'm going to force myself to get in front of the camera so that #1 I can't live in denial about my problem and #2 I can watch myself making progress as I am adopting healthier habits and losing weight.
For now, my plan involves following Weight Watcher eating religiously (I know HOW, I just need to commit to it), doing DDP Yoga in the mornings, and taking evening walks (and eventually jogs). I have a short term goal of being able to job the Persimmon Festival 5K this September.
Now those are pictures I'm looking forward to posting! Sweat, nasty, and all!